Concepts of Meditation

There are two kinds of meditation: Stabilizing could be characterized by a type of mechanical repetition of a word or phrase (mantra/japa) or by simply doing an action over and over like yantra (the continual gazing at an object, i.e.: a picture or statue of a deity, the symbol for OM, a flame, etc.). The other type of meditation is analytical. In this form, the practitioner doesn’t just repeat a word over and over or look at a picture repetitively. The meditator would try to understand everything they know or everything that can be known about the object of their attention.
As an example of the difference between a stabilizing and an analytical meditation, let’s use the word ‘mind’. You could repeat ‘mind’, ‘mind’, and ‘mind’, ad infinitum and eventually go deeper and deeper into a state of tranquility that could be described as ‘your inner mind’. This is very pleasant but perhaps might not be fulfilling relative to an increase in understanding about the mind. This is where analytical meditation kicks in.
The meditator who is taught in analytical methodology might also begin by repeating the word ‘mind’, but once firmly concentrated on it would then proceed to analyzing everything they knew about ‘mind’.
In hypothesis, finally, if they kept at it, they would join everything in the universe, because everything is in some way connected with the ‘mind’ (Einstein’s’ theory of relativity - all things are relative to everything else). But what actually happens is that the aim of your meditation starts to present itself to you and you can sit back and in your mind’s-eye simply witness your Higher Mind reveal every aspect of peace to you.
Your internal Witness, who is your Real Self, is always getting, knowing, and at one with all and once we remove the fake impression that we are different (a body, a mind, an emotion, even a separate soul) from it, we will know and be at one with everything. Our consciousness awakens to its real natural of never-ending, eternal Peace, Love, Knowledge, and Bliss, and we live contentedly ever after.
This is the state known as Contemplation. So in a nutshell, you should start by concentrating, and then meditate by the analytical method, and then this gradually merges into contemplation. It is then when all the questions turn into realisations. The Tibetans Buddhists consider analytical meditation techniques to be superior to the stabilizing. For you, now, it may be possible that this may bring about the result you seek.